Making Fetch happen...again

Here we go…when I started working on Feed Your Curiosity again, I didn’t consider bringing the written blog portion back with it. I started wondering…is a blog antiquated? Do people read blogs anymore? Do I even feel like committing to writing again? There were a number of questions that left me feeling like I should forgo it completely. We’re in the age of videos, TikTok, and short attention spans- written words be damned! I decided on doing “more engaging” content like YouTube videos or a podcast and kept it pushing.

Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), I started feeling stuck when it came to sitting down and verbally expressing my thoughts and ideas. Once I started to notice the blocked feeling, I started noticing more negative self talk and imposter syndrome. I thought to myself, “Well, if I can’t think of anything to say when I sit and try to create content, that must mean I don’t have anything important to say.” Then I would close my laptop and pick up one of the bajillion other things that I can, do, and/or should being doing.

[cue anxious spiral]

[takes slow deep breath]

[slowly releases breath]

If I were to treat myself like one of my clients, I would challenge myself to (probably take another deep breath and) reality test that anxious thought. And while client me for sure would want to roll her eyes, the truth is that anxious thought about not having anything important to say is not true.

I have a lot to say. Some of it might be more important than other stuff but I have a lot to say. I’m not as practiced at using my voice in this way but I’m not new to speaking my mind. It’s a skill I can build to feel more confident and comfortable. And instead of undervaluing my skill as a writer, I can honor my skill as wordsmith in this form while I build confidence using my voice.

This is a silly little world with silly little social constructs and rules. I have enough people and systemic factors that would love to restrict my voice, my power, my movement, and my access in this world. I will not make it easier for them.